Celebrating Yourself!

So, today I reached my goal of losing 100 lbs. I didn't do anything too special during the day. All I did was clean up my apartment, get some strawberries and chocolate milk from the grocery store, talk with my cousins about dogs and cats and spring cleaning and yup...nothing much. I was so prepared to spend the day cleaning and doing nothing even if I managed to meet one of my first weight loss goals...I was gonna spend it on my COUCH! I had no plans. I don't really go out to bars. I think I've become some kind of recluse or something. Then a friend of mine asked me if I wanted to go out to a bar and I said yes. Why the hell have I been spending my time in my Netflix coma induced couch weekends? I used to be so adventurous and now I'm all...that sounds like work hahahahaha But my couch is pretty comfy...

In the end, I decided to instigate an old tradition I had...I am going to start celebrating firsts again. Which is just another way of saying I am going to celebrate myself. I'm glad that my friend asked me to go out with her because I really would have just stayed at home and done nothing. My weight loss is a first and the biggest goal I had for this year! I should celebrate myself more often. I even got all dolled up to go dancing and wore my shiny shoes and felt great! It felt great! :D I'm so happy that I can make myself happy too. Happy enough to want to share my accomplishments with the world.

So, I used to celebrate everything with dancing or doing something with my friends. That way they could share in my joy and have a good time as well. Because really, we all should be sharing our joys and triumphs with those that know us best and those that want to be around us. It got me thinking that I haven't celebrated firsts with my friends in a long time though. I wondered why I even stopped in the first place. It was a New Years Resolution I had a few years back and it was the most difficult but amazing year :) We celebrated the first time I drove in a city. We celebrated the first time my friend moved out of province. We celebrated the first time my cousin moved in with her boyfriend. We found a reason to be joyful and to celebrate. 

So, I've decided that I am going to start bringing that back. I am going to start celebrating firsts with my friends and loved ones. Even if it is something that might be a lil sad, having someone there might be all someone needs to get through it. I remember that I had a few friends over for the first time I ever baked a cake for the child I lost in 2004. It was a sad event but having their company on that day meant the world to me. I think that maybe that is what this world needs - more celebrating the little things in life. Like the first time you fit into those skinny jeans, or the first time you shaved your head bald or the first time you met the in-laws...something, ANYTHING! 

As for me, what I need to do more of is celebrate life. It is the only one I am going to have in this body, during this time, and with these memories. I appreciate all that is, all that was and all that will be. I want to embrace my life with gusto again instead of being...stagnant. I've been standing still. While it's good to take a breather...I've been isolating myself and that's not good. I want to see people smile. I want to shout a cheery hello. I want to make people laugh. I want to see the vibrancy of their life reflected back at me. That's how I want to celebrate life. How do you want to celebrate life?

Till next time,

       xo 1/2