So, question, do you ever find yourself having a crazy deep and intense epiphany while you are doing something mundane? Well, I seem to get those when I am doing the most mundane things...like...drying my bellybutton.
It seriously occurred to me, while drying my bellybutton, that I really don't like my bellybutton. I actually don't like a lot of things. I love and a lot of things. I love a lot of people. I just started to think about all the positive lovey-mush-warm-fuzzy stuff when I suddenly realized "Hey! How come I never think of myself as being worthy of the list?" Then I thought about how egocentric that sounded but no. No. I do love me for me. Even when I don't like how I act at times (I can seriously get on my own nerves) - I still love me for me. I should be on that list. But society tells us that's selfish but shrinks say its essential. Some people really believe you have to let other people love you and you love them and that's that. I say it feels good to love me for me. I'd rather love me for me than look in the mirror and hate the impostor staring back at me in despair. I have life in me. It is my life long obsession to live it. For this epic journey to reach it's conclusion, I need to be on solid terms with myself. Even if I can't stand my bellybutton hahahaha
We all have something okay.
So, this still had me thinking though. How come I never add myself to that list? There are numerous things I love about me. I love my lips. I love touching them. I love licking them (okay, this is sounding weird lol). I love my smile. I love my eyes. I love my body. I may not like that I am feeling out of shape and look it. I still love me. I love how I am compassionate. I love how I try to see the bright side of things. I love the parts of me that see the humour in a bleak situation. I love that I am capable of loving someone. I love that I am free to live without fear.


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