Reached a New Level of Rage...MY RANT!!!!

So, today I had a shit day. Seriously, I had a minor fantasy (not calling this a daydream) about slapping all the idiots I have to deal with in my life. Slapping them upside the head, hard enough, that they feel the sting of their idiocy later on. Maybe slapping some sense into their skulls so what I am saying can penetrate their brains.

I have never been so irritated in my life. People can be scary and immature with their rumour mongering and drama causing psychosis. How disturbing is this scenario...say something happens to you and it leads to someone calling you up and shouting at you (with no REAL basis) about something THEY HEARD. When it happened to you - NOT THEM - but you. Then it escalates to epic portions which flow into all aspects of your life. I felt miserable when I had a bunch of people discussing aspects of my life, they are not privy too.

But somehow...what happened to you is because of them...meanwhile..they WEREN'T THERE! 

Once again, I have had to have this talk with the people in my life. My life is my own. I live it in a way that does not negatively effect anyone around me. I pay my bills. I contribute to today's society in a constructive manner. I help my family out as much as I can. I don't drive right now because I'm scared I might have a random episode of vertigo (which happened earlier today when I was stressed out **whoa! Maybe a correlation?!*). I keep the family heirloom I was given locked away in a safety deposit box because I'm not an idiot. It's sentimental value is worth more to my family than it's actually worth. I have a small circle of people (that's just gotten a lot smaller now) that I can call about anything and everything. I call those people my TRUE FRIENDS.

Those people are the people I chose to have in my life. So what if one of them has a history of drug abuse or the other has a criminal record a gangster would be proud of?! That's their past. That isn't who they are now. People always say they hate being judged but are always so ready to judge...ARGH!!!  My little universe may be small on the outside...but everyone inside of my life has the freedom to do as they please and they are loved - by simply being themselves. Individuals who have to victimize themselves, or blame other people for choices they made and then judge them or get mad at them for not stopping...oh my goodness gracious...it makes me all confuzzled!

Look...I honestly don't believe it is healthy to treat people the way some people do. In order to have a healthy relationship with anyone, you gotta have a solid one with yourself. Sure, sometimes you need someone to re-teach you all the wonderful things they know to be true about you...because some other person tried to take that away from you. At the end of the day, you are your own person. People may help you up and help you through things but the strength to keep moving past it and keep going - THAT'S ALL YOU! Some people may call me arrogant behind my back, along with some other things, but ya know what? Meh. I know I'm not arrogant. Arrogance is undeserved pride. I worked my ass off to take pride in anything I do.

There was a time where I didn't think I was worth much. We all have a past though. Hell! If you hit puberty...you got baggage babe. It happens. It's just an immutable fact of life. Get over it. Quit mulling over the if's. Nothing good ever came out of "what if's" except doubts. What's disturbing...is people who hold grudges. Years could pass by and they would be laying in wait. I think of it like this - that person is letting someone else have entire control over their life. They are waiting for them. In the back of their mind, the person they want to get revenge on - is always there. How does that not disturb anyone?

In the end...haters gonna hate I guess...

So...

You are just giving me control over your life. Thanks! Now onward my minions!